Letter of Love to my First Born

My letter of love to you, 

My heart grew ten times over just staring at you from the first moment. I have watched you grow from that very first moment to the child you are now. Now, at age 9, as you creep closer to double digits, you are counting down the minutes to middle school and the years of preteen. Make note that calling me mommy is no longer part of your vocabulary, and from now on, I will be called "Mom." You often can’t remember the moments that were just you and I. From rolling over, standing up, taking your first steps, and the silly things in between. Like your first crawl, which was backward. It was love at first sight.

Before you, I couldn’t imagine the way your presence would change the way I loved.

Before you became a big brother, you had all our attention, and we loved you so much. We never imagined loving anyone as equally as you. You have taught me to be a mother and daddy to be a father. You are the first grandchild on either side. My son, my sweet son, still loves to snuggle (I hope you never give this up!), although not too keen on hugs, even from mom. As you grew older, our family grew too. And So did the love. 

There are days you don’t see it and stomp off, grunting. But remember, my love for you grows each and every day; I love you more than yesterday and tomorrow a little bit more. Now we giggle and say you are always my first baby, sneak in a snuggle, and flip through pictures of when you were and the moments we've captured as you grew. I love that. You are the best big brother. Stepped right into the role with ease. And when there are days you need more than usual, I am still here, just a little busy running after another.

This letter of love is my note to you. I am here, and I promise to always be here. YOU have made me the mother that I am.

- Love, Mom